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Thursday, 15 June 2006
Tired of this
Mood:
 crushed out
Topic: My Life
Okay, now for my first entry, I am going to start with a small introduction. My name is Precious, I live in Virginia, I am from St.Louis. I am 21 years old. I am trying to get my life together, but unfortunately, I am suck in a place in my life where I am not happy. Now for the juice stuff. I have loved and lost. I have tried to hide the fact that I am hurting but the truth is winning out. I am in love with two men. One's name is Loren. I have known him since middle school and he's changed alot, but what happens with us is that it was suppose to be me and him. But he is with his girlfriend back in St.Louis. So with me and him,its complicated. Now the other guy is Jeff. I have known Jeff since high school. We dated briefly but nothing serious. I just told him recently that I loved him, then he was with some girl and I knew that I had no chance in hell with him. Now he is not dating her but he is not telling me how he feels. I have always been in love with them, but everything has been so complicated. life has been hell with that. So I tried to replace them, that didnt work. So now I have vowed to make myself happy, by driving my friend insane talking about them. So me and my friend Shareka have taken it upon ourselves to help each other out with our love lives. I help her get her guy, and she helps me. She seems to think that Loren and I belong together, and I dont doubt that, but I dont know if he really wants to be with me. So I have tried to put that in the back of my mind and go for Jeff. So reka is helping get with Jeff. She told him that I cant stop talking about him and that he needs to call me to talk about me. I cant wait until he does call so that I can get a handle on things. Until then I am unpatiently hanging onto the notion that we will be together. So now you know my warped life in relationships. Now for work stuff. I am a nurse, I am back in school for my R.N., I cant wait for the moment when I get it, I am going to buy a house. Next friends, I have awesome friends that you will hear about more as this thing progresses. So I wont go there right now. So for now, later
Posted by monique151802
at 2:52 AM EDT
Updated: Sunday, 18 June 2006 12:44 AM EDT
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