Sunday, 18 June 2006

Whats A Girl To Do???
Mood:  special
Now Playing: Hanging By A Moment by Lifehouse
Topic: My Life
Well first let me start by I feel a little better. I have been talking to my friends and they have been letting me know that they are here for me. Its funny, I never knew how awesome my friends were until I told the truth. But the best part is that I have decided to let go of this high school crush and be with the one person that knows me inside and out. This person has loved me longer than anyone that I have ever been with, and it is one of the guys that I have been talking about. Do you wanna know who it is??????? .....Well...., its Loren. He has been like the rock that I needed when things get hard. Now that everything has changed in my life and I know exactly what I am here on this earth for, I have a grip on my life and my reality. It cool, that now I can talk freely and be myself. So first, I am a practicing pagan, now I am still a Christian for everyone that's about to be like, devil child and all that mess, but I love nature, and I love to celebrate that. Next, I have been talking to only true friends. It seems like I was lost in some type of twisted reality and I thought that I could count on everyone, not true. In fact, I only have like four true friends right now. They care for me like I care about them. They are Loren, Reka, Anna, and Adrienne. They love me just for who I am, and I like that. Next, I let go of the past. I had to let go of the anger, and fear that I had bottled up inside of me for years. So now, I an honestly say that I feel a little better about things. Last but not least, I can say now, I love myself!!!!! Yes it sounds really conceited, but I do. I love that I love rock music, I love that I write rock music, I love that I love that ocean and that I love poetry. That I love sex, and that I am comfortable with my sexuality. Yes I am people, I can say that I like my body, but I still have work to do. And last but not least, I love dancing and singing. I live for those. Its where I can let go of everything that bothers me in the world and go into my little space and hide. Okay I am done for now, later!!!

Posted by monique151802 at 12:22 AM EDT

Updated: Sunday, 18 June 2006 12:44 AM EDT

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