Tuesday, 29 August 2006
Okay today has been one of those days. Is it just me or can you fall in love with the dream of being in love? I was asked today by my new boyfriend did I think that I could fall in love with him? I got so excited by the fact of falling in love, but everytime that I do, I get hurt. Recently I found out that Jeff was married and it made me realize that I need to let these men go. Its going to be hard but I know its for the best.
I mean I am in love with two guys that are with someone else. Now that Jeff's married, I know that I really have to let him go. See its just that I wont mess around with a married man. With Loren, I havent talked to him in awhile now. I know he tells me not to worry but the truth of the matter is that he is with someone else. Even if he says that they arent like together, its still his girlfriend. I have turned into a whore. I am trying to have someone that isnt even mines.
So the griving period has started. I have took down the pictures and I am taking care of me. I have been mediatating and hanging out with friends. Not to mention I do have a boyfriend now. He's a sweetheart. His name is Casey and he just treats me like a queen. Well I dont want to type anymore so Im done. Leave notes people, later
Posted by monique151802 at 12:42 AM EDT
Updated: Tuesday, 29 August 2006 12:51 AM EDT