Thursday, 31 August 2006
So Tell Me Something...
Okay, so I have had a pretty great day today. Well for starters, I broke things off with my boyfriend. All he wanted to talk about was sex and I am not going to reward him with my body. He doesnt know how to treat me so he's gone. I know that it sounds alittle mean but hey, I dont care, he's a loser and I am not going to have another one of those in my life.
Secondly, I went on a date today. I went out with my dance partner. We had a blast. He was a perfect gentleman. He opened doors, bought me flowers, we had great conversation, bought me dinner, then we walked in the park. Just enjoying the scenery. What a gentleman, thats everything that I ever wanted in a guy, someone to treat me right.
Next, I came home and I was about to go to sleep when I hear this knock on my door. It as Miguel. For all of you who dont know he was a guy who I went out with along time ago. We just kind of stopped talking, with him being in the military and me having like two jobs, it was hard. He was like havent seen you in awhile so I decided to come over to make sure that your okay.
So he came in and we talked on the balcony. It was so nice talking to him again. It was like a great ending to a perfect day. I dont know, it seems like someone really wants me to be happy. But you know in the back of my mind, I am still thinking about Loren. I cant help it. I thought that if I kept myself occupied that I would be okay, but its getting harder for me to keep my sanity. I know that I messed up with him, so I am trying to move on, but its so damn hard. Especially when I keep comparing him to all the guys that I date.
Its not that I just have to have a boyfriend, its just fun to have one. Someone to spend time with, someone that you could fall in love with, someone that could love you back, I want that in my life. I want that best friend/boyfriend. But I dont think that it'll happen for me, not in this lifetime. So I am having fun while I still can, at least its something to pass time with. And if Mr. Right is out there, I'll be with him. If not, then at least Im having fun with the Mr. Rightnow. So I have a question for anyone that reads this, how do you get over a first love? How do you get over some you want so bad and they dont want you? Please help!!!! Well later hotties
Posted by monique151802 at 3:06 AM EDT
Updated: Thursday, 31 August 2006 3:11 AM EDT