Saturday, 16 September 2006
What A Way
Okay well I just finished talking to Brandy about everything that has been going on with me as far as men wise. She said that maybe I wanted to be with Jeff because he was always the guy that I couldnt have. With Loren, she says that its different. That everything that is going on with us is because we just are so selfish when it comes to loving each other.
So I got to thinking, I think that I am going to tell Loren the one piece of the puzzle that has been missing about in my life. I was just upset lately because I have made a child and I couldnt even keep her. Thats the hard part about being a sarrogate. I had to give up a baby that I loved for 9 months. Now I have been thinking about when I would be able to have my own child.
Everyone knows that family is very important to me and I just want to start my own soon. I want someone to love me for me. I know that person is Loren. I love him and he loves me. I dont have to worry anymore, I found the person I want to be with for the rest of my life. That sounds weird right?
I dont want to talk about that anymore, I think I might cry. Okay so anyways, Bransy just came out of her room talking about the guys that she's been talking to and they really treat her bad. I hope that things get better for her. These men that she talks to are horrible. Well thats it for now, later
Posted by monique151802 at 2:19 AM EDT
Updated: Saturday, 16 September 2006 2:24 AM EDT